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whose person did i become?
i wasnt
alone
in my
thoughts.
(i struggle to shut out all the things that i wasnt saying)
i dream incessantly
and stare far too much at the sky
(can you tell me what it says about me?)
I'm quiet when I break. And no, you wouldn't know, I could be smiling, and no, you wouldn't know. I could be laughing at your jokes and your surface weather pleasantries, and I could be breaking, and no, you wouldn't know.
There is stonework I traced, and never memorised completely, cracks I didn't step on and fingers interlaced, conversations I recall pieces of, like pieces of string humming reverberations from a can on the other side
I'm too stubborn for anyone's good. I couldn't relax into a moment... wait, I could; what I mean is, I can't?
There are ruffled edges and frayed grooves where you can lay back in comfortable silence. Where the when is where and the when is who and the who is what and the what is lips. How there can never be a why I can tell you, but I won't. I don't tell.
I'm counting millimetres on my best distressers, looping ladders to my eyes
but I can't figure out a way to unlock myself
becoming one with the theory of invisibility
your shutters flutter occasionally,
sometimes i think you may still be awake
and you dance a little,
like i never saw you do
and i realise awake is just another dream
It comes back, slowly at first, dips into too cool waters and flitters back under the shade. Feet a little wet. Walks patiently back past the trees, far away from any sand and runs. Seconds and seconds and seconds and splash. Into the deep. And we all drip in here, but you don't notice the little things so much when you're surrounded
i wasnt
alone
in my
thoughts.
(i struggle to shut out all the things that i wasnt saying)
i dream incessantly
and stare far too much at the sky
(can you tell me what it says about me?)
I'm quiet when I break. And no, you wouldn't know, I could be smiling, and no, you wouldn't know. I could be laughing at your jokes and your surface weather pleasantries, and I could be breaking, and no, you wouldn't know.
There is stonework I traced, and never memorised completely, cracks I didn't step on and fingers interlaced, conversations I recall pieces of, like pieces of string humming reverberations from a can on the other side
I'm too stubborn for anyone's good. I couldn't relax into a moment... wait, I could; what I mean is, I can't?
There are ruffled edges and frayed grooves where you can lay back in comfortable silence. Where the when is where and the when is who and the who is what and the what is lips. How there can never be a why I can tell you, but I won't. I don't tell.
I'm counting millimetres on my best distressers, looping ladders to my eyes
but I can't figure out a way to unlock myself
becoming one with the theory of invisibility
your shutters flutter occasionally,
sometimes i think you may still be awake
and you dance a little,
like i never saw you do
and i realise awake is just another dream
It comes back, slowly at first, dips into too cool waters and flitters back under the shade. Feet a little wet. Walks patiently back past the trees, far away from any sand and runs. Seconds and seconds and seconds and splash. Into the deep. And we all drip in here, but you don't notice the little things so much when you're surrounded
Self realization
My self realization and the need to dig deeper in understanding the dark parts of myself led me to writing poetry and lyrics for my music. It made me able to Consciously see these behaviors. I'd write out these parts of myself in a way that seemed fucked up and in need of change. If anybody relates and needs help with the same, I'm providing a subscription to my self healing writings. Thank you everyone. New content will be added consistently.
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What was it I wanted to say? Do you know? Do you remember? ...no? No. I suppose not.
What was it that I can't say? What was it that is sort of, I don't know, kind of killing me, kind of stopping me from breathing, kind of really making it hard for me to keep myself composed, kind of really not allowing me to think straighter than fucking crooked and missing spaces between thoughts. There. I don't even know what I'm saying, but I can sense I'm saying it kind of angrily, bitterly. Like I can't change things?
I can change things... right? I've got choice... right?
I can change things.
I can change things.
I can change nothing sometimes. And it really stuffs up the little bit of good thought patterns I was harbouring for a while, for once.
What was it that I can't say? What was it that is sort of, I don't know, kind of killing me, kind of stopping me from breathing, kind of really making it hard for me to keep myself composed, kind of really not allowing me to think straighter than fucking crooked and missing spaces between thoughts. There. I don't even know what I'm saying, but I can sense I'm saying it kind of angrily, bitterly. Like I can't change things?
I can change things... right? I've got choice... right?
I can change things.
I can change things.
I can change nothing sometimes. And it really stuffs up the little bit of good thought patterns I was harbouring for a while, for once.
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this is quite
quiet quite quiet
beautiful.
i assure you,
how splendid.
it's soft and brutal.
c:
quiet quite quiet
beautiful.
i assure you,
how splendid.
it's soft and brutal.
c: